My Story

The day began quietly enough as Rita's mom and dad headed to the Foothills Hospital in Calgary for some routine fetal monitoring as the due date approached.  The nurse strapped on the sensor and noticed the baby wasn't moving.  She suggested the baby was asleep and mom should drink some juice to wake it up--to no avail.  A group of resident physicians were walking through the maternity area, on their way to see another patient, and stopped in their tracks as they looked over at the tracing. 

"There's a decel.  There's another decel." said the resident, looking alarmed. 

"What's a decel?" asked the parents.

"It means the baby's heart is slowing down.  There is fetal distress."

A team sprang to action--taking bloodwork, wheeling the stretcher into the delivery room, with an anaesthetist quickly running from another delivery room as an emergency was in progress and an immediate caesarean was needed.

So began Rita's traumatic entry into this world.  Her parents first saw her hooked up to machines on her way to the NICU.  A doctor came to talk to them.  He explained her head was small and she had an extra fold of skin at the inner corner of her eyes.  Her ears were small and there was a Simeon crease in her hand.  What was the doctor trying to say?  If her head was small, did that mean her brain was small?  Yes, it did.  A geneticist would come to visit.

The geneticist came and explained that this baby had many of the features of Down syndrome.  How sure was she that the baby had Down syndrome?  99% sure was her answer which was confirmed by a blood test.

The days and months that followed were a blur of medical appointments.  Rita had a heart defect and needed open heart surgery. Her eyes were crossed.  Could she hear?  Was there liver damage from hypoxia during birth? She needed early intervention to stimulate her development.   It went on and on, but Rita paid it no mind and continued to grow, to learn and carry on with her life.

Though she could not walk until 3 years of age, she happily scooted about the house on her bottom, shredding every pair of pants that she had over time.  Her first and only word at that time was "up."  It didn't really mean anything; she just said it randomly.   Shortly thereafter, speech therapy began, and Rita learned to speak in sign language at first, learning about 30 words in sign to indicate her wants and needs.  At the age of 4, Rita began to attend the PREP program in Calgary, where more speech therapy was initiated.  One day, Rita's mom came to sit in during speech.  Rita wanted to leave the room, but the therapist said she had to ask properly with words.  Rita, with a combination of sounds and gestures indicated her desire "EEE   oh aye" which was "Me go play."  This was a turning point and she never looked back.

Rita was the very first child in her Calgary school with special needs.  There was some resistance to allowing her into the classroom.  "What would the other parents think?" asked the principal.  "How can we manage?"  Nevertheless, the family pushed forward, grateful for the support of the PREP program who helped negotiate the process.

Rita's grade 1 teacher, Mrs. Simm was very nervous.  Despite her many decades of teaching, she had never taught someone with a developmental disability.  She thought she didn't know how.  However, she was willing to give it a shot.  Very quickly Mrs. Simm made the transition from fear to elation as Rita made steady progress.  Mrs. Simm used creative means to stimulate reading--using photos of Rita holding large pieces of bristol board of various colours, to learn how to read her colours.  One day, Rita's mom was surprised to see Rita identifying the letters and numbers on the license plate of the family car. Said Mrs Simm "Rita works harder than any child in this class."

Rita continued in an inclusive setting at school until grade 6.  At that point, it seemed that the best way forward would be to switch over to special education.  Rita was being left further and further behind in the mainstream classroom and really was spending all her time with her educational assistant and not with peers.  So, Rita changed to a new school and settled in well.

At this point in her life Rita was also preparing for becoming a bat mitzvah, together with her mother.  At first, she took bat mitzvah lessons to learn to recite her portions in Hebrew, from a cantor.  However, it quickly became apparent that she was not the same as other students and he really could not accommodate to her differences.  Luckily, Sandy Corenblum, a cousin, was experienced as a Hebrew teacher and very well versed in exceptional students.  Thus began the weekly visits to Sandy's house where Rita would learn to site read words in Hebrew--sometimes with games like having to fish the words written on slips of paper, out of a basket with her toes and then to read them.  At the end of each lesson, Rita went to the refrigerator where Morah Sandy provided a scoop of cream cheese.  It was Rita's privilege to feed the cream cheese to Sandy's dog named "Schmatta."  Schmatta was a small white hound and well suited her name which means "rag" in Yiddish.

The bat mitzvah itself was a momentous occasion as once again it was a first to have a child with special needs become a bat mitzvah on a Saturday morning in front of the whole congregation.  It was more common for people to quietly celebrate on a weekday if the child was atypical.   Rita happily got up and said her piece, including a speech--she always loved giving speeches.  Many in the congregation were moved to tears and everyone felt the importance and joy in the celebration.

After such joy, it was devastating, a couple of months later to find out that Rita's dad, Jay, was suffering from a rare form of bladder cancer.  The next year and half were filled with medical procedures and treatments, but there was no cure.  Jay quietly passed away in the Agape Hospice in Calgary in 2002.

In 2003, Rita began a new life in Toronto with her mom and sisters.  Mom worked for an uncle, and Rita began attending Drewry Secondary School, in a special education classroom.  High school marked Rita's rebellious phase--stealing the teacher's keys and hiding them in a locker, for example.  Trying to run away at recess time was another adventure.  She did spend a few afternoons in detention.  However, she also had some great times in high school, becoming a member of the sign language choir!  To this day she still breaks into sign language when she hears "It's a Wonderful World."

Towards the end of high school, Rita began a co-op placement with an organization called Common Ground.   This was a parent-initiated program that started as a bakeshop and grew to include some satellite coffee shops called "Coffee Sheds."  Students and partners, as the permanent staff were called, worked in the kitchen or in customer service. The program was supervised by job coaches and the workers and students all had developmental disabilities.  Rita rotated through these areas and learned new skills.

At the age of 21, high school ended.  For adults with developmental disabilities in Ontario, funding for programming was and still is, quite sparse.  All programs required the participants arrive independently either by public transit or private transportation--prohibitively expensive.  Rita did not know how to take public transit by herself.  Luckily, her job coach at Common Ground lived near Rita and was willing to help train Rita to take public transit.  Rita's sister Rachel, and Mom also pitched in and over the next year, Rita gradually became more independent.  She learned to use a cell phone, how to be safe in public and how to deal with unexpected situations.

The first solo trips were a bit scary.  One day Rita got on the wrong streetcar and ended up at the fairgrounds, opposite to the end of town where she was supposed to go.  However, the streetcar driver kept her calm and took her around the loop, heading back in the right direction.  She got home safely.

Another time, a bus did one of the infamous Toronto transit "short turns"--where passengers must exit the bus part way along the route and wait for another bus to continue the journey.  Unfortunately, Rita did not realize that the short turn had placed her on a cross street, not the street she was supposed to be on.  She waited and waited, but the right bus didn't come.  Finally, Mom drove down to the area and for a while was in a panic, unable to locate Rita.  Rita reported by phone, that she was inside a store.  The proprietor finally took the phone and in broken English, revealed that Rita was in a computer cafe, on the wrong street.  Crisis averted.  The next time a bus driver tried to short turn on that street, Rita explained that she's not allowed to get off at Wilson Avenue because she gets lost there.  The bus driver obligingly called his supervisor, and the short turn was cancelled.  Rita continued on her way.

Rita loved to commute independently and would rather take the bus than be driven to destinations.  She even refused rides home if her mom happened to be at a meeting nearby at dismissal time.  She would wave as Mom drove by in the car.

In addition to her job serving coffee and snacks at the Coffee Shed, Rita attended and continues to attend a day program.  Dani is the program, another parent founded entity.  Here she participates in many activities:  drama, art, music, social programs, cooking, vocational programs and more.  Through Dani she has made many close friends and developed new skills.  Each year she excitedly participates in a theatre production.  Art night is another highlight.  There's a special theme and a wonderful exhibit along with presentations such as a fashion show and an art auction.

Rita has developed into a confident young lady.  She has a great sense of humour and is a very empathetic friend.  She never misses a friend's birthday and in fact has created birthday cards for everybody she knows.  She enjoys watching movies (often the same one over and over again).  Singing is another pursuit of Rita's.  YouTube provides the accompaniment and Rita sings and dances in her chair. What she may lack in tonality, she compensates for with her enthusiasm for each song.

She is a creature of habit and doesn't always like things to change.  For instance, she must watch the news at 5 pm or else!  She strongly objects to any scheduling irregularities--preparation is needed to get her to accept a new routine. 

Nevertheless, during the current covid crisis, she has adapted and faithfully participates in each and every Zoom session offered.   She's also made some new friends on Zoom and is never bored despite being at home for the past 6 months.  She really misses riding public transit and looks forward to the day when she can once again ride the bus all by herself.

Looking into the far-off future is still a bit murky.  Housing opportunities for people with disabilities in Ontario are few and far between.  Determining the next phase is a daunting challenge-one that is on the mind of all parents of adults with disabilities in the province. 

For the present, Rita's life at home continues.  She wakes up every day raring to go, greeting her friends on Zoom and enthusiastically listing the things that she is thankful for during the group sharing time.